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The Birth by OneBadPanda
The Birth
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Fixed it. No longer shit quality. Save as PNG not JPEG!

Illustration of Sharazade and Lucid a short while after birth. Lucid is the pup retreating to his father.
Mother, Addeva, and father Valdeze in the background.

Addeva dies shortly after this due to excessive blood-loss and an overall weakness to the trauma of birth. The pups were raised by a wet nurse of little importance. 

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Used: Sketchpad + Phone Camera + Photoshop CS6 + Mouse
Time: I dunno, sketched it one day prior to lineart and coloring. Worked on the latter for about 5 hours.

I miss my pen tablet.

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These are Maned Wolves, not foxes, they just look similar in appearance. 
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    STATUES || Healthy, Psychotic
    ACTIVITY LEVEL || Active - Secondary

    ROLE-PLAY EXAMPLE || A couple hundred meters away a rough-coated wolf was sitting beside the base of a large oak tree. His beady grey eye was locked onto a part of the trunk where the bark had been stripped by cause of taking a claw-tight paw to it over and over. It was one of the few ways to keep him in one place for a certain amount of time. If not clawing away at the bark he would have been pacing. He had scraped so hard he was nearly causing the pads of his left paw to bleed, but he showed no signs of it bothering him.

    He only stopped when the familiar sound hit his ears, causing them to flick towards the direction of the source. That was his cue. He pushed himself to all fours and turned away from the tree, heading into the field (or wherever they were at that time). The sun beamed down on his brick-colored fur, and the wind combed through the mass of untamed black mane upon his neck. He picked up to a trot to shorten the distance between him and Derga, and soon the other male wolf was in sight. Lucid padded up to him and instantly snorted his nose. “You took a while.”



Basic information




    NAME || Lucid
                  
     TRIBE || Sun Tribe

    SEX || Male
    GENDER || Male

    BIRTH SEASON || Fall
    AGE || 5

    RANK || Hunter/Warrior (Or wherever the best place for this asshole would be)


PHYSICAL INFORMATION



    BUILD || Tall, Stocky but not extremely muscular

    SCARS || The most predominate scar would be the one on his face, which stretches across his left eye. He is blind in said eye.

    FUR TEXTURE || Rough, coarse
    FUR COLOUR || Brick-red, black, and white

    EYES || Grey/Silver, Left eye is Blind and thus, clouded.

    HEIGHT || 3'2 feet at shoulder
    WEIGHT || 88 pounds
    LENGTH || 4'9 from Nose to Tail Tip

    SCENT || Lucid generally tends to smell of dried blood, and if not dried blood, then fresh blood.

    VOICE || 

    QUICK DESCRIPTION || Lucid is a Maned wolf with the same coloration as his sister Sharazade, the only difference being his black mane reaches farther down his back instead of stopping just at his withers. He is a psycho.


PERSONALITY




    Loyal? || Positive |  Lucid pledges full loyalty to the Sun Tribe and it's Chief Derga. There is no shaking this, and he will do whatever is commanded of him, as well as kill anyone who tries to stop him.

    Smooth Talker || Positive/Negative |  A double-edged sword, Lucid has a way with his words. He could use it to seduce a female, but only to bring her within lethal striking distance.

    Tactical Fighter || Neutral |  Lucid, despite his cynical outbursts, can be very cunning and thoughtful in a battle. It is probably the one thing keeping him alive among the Tribe. 

    Merciless || Negative |  Lucid will kill anyone, or anything, without remorse or guilt. A hidden trait: Lucid would be willing to kill a wolf of his own Tribe, the Chief being perhaps the only wolf he would hesitate to challenge. 

    Psychotic || Negative |  A twisted mind and way of thinking; Lucid has it all. Self-inflicted pain does not phase him, pain inflicted upon others excites him, and slow deaths are most pleasing. 


    LIKES || Fighting, Killing, Hunting
    DISLIKES || Slow conversation, Disrespect towards the Chief, His sister Sharazade  

    STRENGTHS || Sharp mind in battle and an average body mass capable of defending himself with, and the occasional ability to mentally weaken an enemy

    WEAKNESSES || Besides general fighting weaknesses, Lucid is not restrained by love or concern, does not have any specific weak spots, and cannot be bargained with

    QUIRKS || If being forced to wait, will either pace around impatiently or perform a task which usually results in self-inflicted harm.


FAMILY




    MOTHER || Addeva || Maned Wolf, Fragile || NPC || Dead || Former Sun Tribe Teacher

    FATHER || Valdeze || Maned Wolf, Muscular || NPC || Dead || Former Sun Tribe Hunter/Warrior

    SIBLINGS || Sharazade || Tribes of Tivaci - Character: SharazadeGroup
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    STATUES || Healthy
    ACTIVITY LEVEL || Primary - Highly Active
    TIME ZONE || CT
    SKYPE || Yes
    NOTES || Preferred
    CHAT || Yes
    COMMENTS || No
    ROLE-PLAY EXAMPLE || The day had been bountiful. Long, elegant black legs padded their way back to a patch of tall lush grass near a river after having been out in the forest during the light hours. As the great sun set its warm light had the soft fur of the she-wolf glowing. It glimmered atop the river nearby, as well as the scales of the fish that was flopping in the jaws of the wolf's muzzle which was still dripping with water. She shook her head to rid herself of the excess water as well as end the fish and laid it in the pile of other food stuffs that she had m
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OneBadPanda || Alive || Rogue - Former Sun Tribe Healer

    PUPS || None


SEXUALITY




    CURRENT MATE || None
    PAST MATES || None

    CURRENT ATTRACTIONS || Lucid doesn't know what the hell love even is.
    PAST ATTRACTIONS || None

    ORIENTATION || Straight
    ACTIVITY || He is more focused on killing, not fucking.

    PHYSICAL PREFERENCES || He wouldn't know what to look for.
    PERSONALITY PREFERENCES || It would be a miracle if someone taught this asshole love. So pretty damn brave.


HISTORY




     PUP-HOOD || Lucid was instantly taken under the wing of his father the moment the last breath of life escaped his mother after birth. Even as a pup, he was bathed in the teachings of blood and fire through his father's intense training. Lucid believed him, and gradually grew more and more distant from anyone except his father. In pup-hood, he was sometimes spotted playing with small prey--but not in the good way.
 
    YOUNG BLOOD || Already showing signs of a warrior, Lucid was extremely active in any Hunting groups within the Tribe. His father was sure to make sure his son attended every ceremony and understood the workings of the Tribe. The boy's cynical quirks began to show themselves during this stage of life, but were ignored. His disconnection from friends and family was a minor concern, but also put him above the rest as far as qualifications for an exceptional warrior. Other wolves of his age did not like him, and males would either pick a fight or avoid him all together. A brawl with another capable warrior scarred him for life, as well as rendered him half blind, though this did not stop him. If one didn't look closely they could never guess his eyesight was impaired since his eyes were grey to begin with and he revealed no signs that it hindered his ability. 

    WARRIORSHIP || His proudest moment was being appointed as a Warrior. He knew his father was proud, and that made it all the better. This title earned him even more harsh glares from fellow Tribe members, but Lucid did not care in the slightest. His loyalty was to the Chief and his father, and them alone. After a run-in with members of the Moon Tribe, his father Valdeze returned him in bad condition. He knew his sister was capable of repairing the damage, not really taking into consideration how bad the damage actually was. However, when his father was found dead the following morning and his sister gone, he knew what had happened. She killed him, and he swore in that moment that he would find her and rip her to pieces.


RELATIONSHIPS




    Bullet; Black|Dislike
    Bullet; BlackBullet; Black|Hate
    Bullet; BlackBullet; BlackBullet; Black|Mortal Enemy
    Skull and Crossbones|wants dead


    Bullet; Yellow|Admires
    Bullet; YellowBullet; Yellow|Respects
    Bullet; YellowBullet; YellowBullet; Yellow|Trusts
    Bullet; YellowBullet; YellowBullet; YellowBullet; Yellow|Idolizes

    Bullet; Pink|Attraction
    Bullet; PinkBullet; Pink|Crush
    Bullet; PinkBullet; PinkBullet; Pink|Major Crush
    Bullet; PinkBullet; PinkBullet; PinkBullet; Pink|Obsession 

    Bullet; Red|Visually Appealing
    Bullet; RedBullet; Red|Physical attraction
    Bullet; RedBullet; RedBullet; Red|Lust
    Heart|Has had a fling with

    Bullet; Purple|inseparable 
    Bullet; PurpleBullet; Purple|Loves
    Bullet; PurpleBullet; PurpleBullet; Purple|Would die for
    Rose|Mate

    Bullet; Green|Likes
    Bullet; GreenBullet; Green|Friend
    Bullet; GreenBullet; GreenBullet; Green|Best friend
    Bullet; GreenBullet; GreenBullet; GreenBullet; Green|Platonic love

    Bullet; White|Acquaintance
    Bullet; WhiteBullet; White|Unsure
    Bullet; WhiteBullet; WhiteBullet; White|Nervous of
    Bullet; WhiteBullet; WhiteBullet; WhiteBullet; White|Scared of

    Bullet; Blue|Uncomfortable
    Bullet; BlueBullet; Blue|Avoidance
    Bullet; BlueBullet; BlueBullet; Blue|Ex-Crush
    Bullet; BlueBullet; BlueBullet; BlueBullet; Blue|Ex-Mate

Moon Tribe
Halla || FrigidMoonlight ||  Bullet; WhiteBullet; White|Unsure
Aibek || ZayZael || Skull and Crossbones|wants dead

Sun Tribe
Derga || Demonwolfwing || Bullet; YellowBullet; Yellow|Respects 
Natosi || Nekktar ||  Bullet; WhiteBullet; White|Unsure
Samael || Black--Alpha ||  Bullet; WhiteBullet; White|Unsure

Sharazade || OneBadPanda || Skull and Crossbones|wants dead 

Earth Tribe
Riku || Kio-Mystery || Skull and Crossbones|wants dead
Brighttail || TeiOuja ||  Bullet; WhiteBullet; White|Unsure

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Application (c) ZayZael
Character (c) OneBadPanda 
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    STATUES || Healthy
    ACTIVITY LEVEL || Primary - Highly Active

    TIME ZONE || CT

    SKYPE || Yes
    NOTES || Preferred
    CHAT || Yes
    COMMENTS || No

    ROLE-PLAY EXAMPLE || The day had been bountiful. Long, elegant black legs padded their way back to a patch of tall lush grass near a river after having been out in the forest during the light hours. As the great sun set its warm light had the soft fur of the she-wolf glowing. It glimmered atop the river nearby, as well as the scales of the fish that was flopping in the jaws of the wolf's muzzle which was still dripping with water. She shook her head to rid herself of the excess water as well as end the fish and laid it in the pile of other food stuffs that she had made in the grass. In the pile were several berries and fruits, a couple sticks of sugarcane as well as a rabbit. The wind pushed through the lush black mane at the top of Sharazade's neck, causing her to lift her nose to the skies and take in all of the scents around her. She couldn't pick up anything distinctively threatening, which was good, so she put her mind at ease and took to taking a few circles in the grass before laying down before her feast. The high grass covered her up entirely so she was able to eat in peace, the sound of the rushing water in front of her calming her nerves. With a large lick of her lips, she reached forward and began tearing away at the flesh of the rabbit. Her delicate paws wrapped around it, claws sinking in to hold it in place as her sharp teeth tore flesh from bone. She'd save the sweets for later.

    By the time darkness had completely fallen, a mess was left in place of the food with only one sugarcane remaining. It was being chewed on, bits and pieces of it breaking off and falling to the ground below. Before long it too had disappeared and as usual, Sharazade pulled herself to her feet and found a spot in the ground along the riverbank to dig a small hole to put the remains in before covering it up. As she stood there, a paw atop the mound of dirt, her bright amber eyes gazed into the water below. She then craned her neck upwards to gaze upon the moon. It was a quarter moon, but it still called to her as it did every night. She did not sing to it, however. Only songs of sadness seemed to be sung at night, and she did not want to be a part of it. She believed in the balance. So she mentally thanked the moon and padded back to her place in the grass. Laying down, ears flat and tail curled around her, Sharazade thanked together the Moon, Sun, and Earth, for their kindness.


Basic information



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    NAME || Sharazade (Shar-uh-zade)
                   
    NICK-NAMES || Sha Sha (by pups); Shara (by adults)

    TRIBE || Rogue (Formerly Sun Tribe)

    SEX || Female
    GENDER || Female

    BIRTH SEASON || Fall
    AGE || 5

    RANK || Healer


PHYSICAL INFORMATION



    BUILD || Tall and Lean, if not Lanky

    SCARS || None

    FUR TEXTURE || Soft with a Silky Mane
    FUR COLOUR || Reddish-brown, Black, White

    EYES || Amber

    HEIGHT || 2'9 ft. at the shoulder
    WEIGHT || 50lbs
    LENGTH || 5'7 from Nose to Tail Tip

    SCENT || Sugarcane

    VOICE || [link] Jessica Straus as Blue in 'Wolf's Rain'

    QUICK DESCRIPTION || Sharazade is a Maned Wolf, sporting a reddish brown coat with long, black legs and a distinctive black mane. She has a white tuft at the tip of her tail (which is longer than the average length for a Maned Wofl), as well as a white 'bib' beneath her throat. Her body is tall and lanky, with a long snout and large fluffy ears.


PERSONALITY




    Intelligent || Positive | Sharazade was always very bright as a pup. With age, she gravitated towards medicine and a more philosophical look on life. To this day she still seeks to obtain more knowledge to help her and others on her journey.
 
    Calm || Positive |  She has a very, very long fuse. Sharazade shows a very peaceful demeanor and prefers it over violence of any kind. This does not mean, however, that she will not stand her ground to protect herself. 

    Resourceful || Positive |  One will almost always find this wolf using things around her (whether it be plants, sticks, rocks, or other such objects) to help her accomplish goals. She is very, how you say, 'pawsy'.

    Curious || Neutral |  Not always yielding the best results, Sharazade is very curious and nosy about new discoveries (and sometimes wolves that have piqued her interests). For medical purposes, she tests new herbs and mixtures on herself or rodents.

    Solo Worker || Negative |  Unsurprisingly, she does not work the best with others. Even when a part of the Sun Clan, she remained by herself more often than not if she was not busy caring for the wounded or ill. She also prefers to hunt alone.

    Intolerable || Negative |  Sharazade--however calm she may be--can become irritated when around pups or ignorant wolves. If the situation has not risen to the point of verbal snapping, she will usually turn away and remove herself from the situation all together.


    LIKES || Sugarcane/berries, thick forests, water
    DISLIKES ||  Excessive noise, violence, pups, ignorant or bull-headed wolves

    STRENGTHS || Intelligence, Swiftness and Agility (Her speed allows her to avoid most fatal attacks)

    WEAKNESSES || Low Stamina (cannot stand ground against larger enemies, or run at max speed for a long amount of time), Frail Body (being tall and lean with low body mass, she's very easy to break) [additions possible]

    QUIRKS || Snacker. Sharazade loves to munch on fruits and sugarcane, and even when on a mission her nose will reach out to snag a fruit or berry (if not stop from a full run all together to admire a beautifully ripened wolf apple.)


FAMILY




    MOTHER || Addeva || Maned Wolf, Fragile || NPC || Dead || Former Sun Tribe Teacher

    FATHER || Valdeze || Maned Wolf, Muscular || NPC || Dead || Former Sun Tribe Hunter/Warrior

    SIBLINGS || Lucid || Tall, Muscular, Identical coloration to his sister Sharazade however, with a scar marking a blind left eye || OneBadPanda || Alive || Sun Tribe 

    PUPS || None


SEXUALITY




    CURRENT MATE || None
    PAST MATES || None

    CURRENT ATTRACTIONS || None
    PAST ATTRACTIONS || Zip

    ORIENTATION || Straight
    ACTIVITY || Nadda

    PERSONALITY PREFERENCES || Protective and Understanding


HISTORY




    PUP-HOOD ||  Sharazade and her brother Lucid were born within the Sun Tribe, under the Sun God's blessings with hopes of becoming great warriors. Unfortunately, their mother, Addeva, passed during birth. But this did not bother the sire at all. His concern was the health of his newborns, and to his pleasure both were applicable. In truth, Valdeze (the sire) wanted only sons, both to become strong fighters as well as pass on their blood line. Much to his dismay, he was given a daughter. Given that his so-called 'mate' was such a fragile, pitiful thing, he did not have much hope for Sharazade from the beginning. And as predicted, despite his harsh teachings, the two siblings grew up entirely different. Lucid became more of a ruthless warrior than his father could have hoped for, while Sharazade slinked away, paying more attention to flowers, bugs, and anything else she could get her paws in to. 
 
    YOUNG BLOOD || All hope was lost for Sharazade long before she became of age to start looking for a direction for her future. Her father paid very little attention to her and her needs, but this did not necessarily bother her either. She had already begun feeling a twisted emotion inside of her stomach akin to her father and brother. She stayed away from them. And though she was never formally accepted into one of the teaching groups, she always listened in on different lessons here and there from healing to fighting. But when she wasn't by the dens she was out exploring, gathering plants and small animals of all kinds to study. She taught herself many things and brought her findings back to show the pack Healer. Some were adopted, some were not, but she was still a 'child' after all. 

    WARRIORSHIP || Without her father or the Clan Leader's blessing, Sharazade was never formally titled a Healer among the Tribe. Though her skills had exceeded expectation by this time, no honor was given. She, however, did not seek it anyway. By this point, Sharazade had already made up her mind about what she wanted to do. The events that followed only pushed the idea farther. She watched on many occasion her father and brother return from battles. Being an aid to the Tribe Healer, she was allowed to help them as she did many others. Though one night turned into something far darker. Valdeze returned from a brutal battle with a few Moon Tribe wolves, and was nearing a critical status. Sharazade's brother Lucid did not partake in this battle, and was enraged at the outcome. He barked at his sister, demanding that she heal their father to pristine condition or there would be hell to pay. Calmly, she informed him of the severity of their father's condition. He did not hear her. By morning Valdeze was dead, and the Tribe noticed that his daughter was not present at his burial. By that time, she was long gone. She never imagined that the first wolf she would ever kill would be of her own blood.


RELATIONSHIPS




    Bullet; Black|Dislike
    Bullet; BlackBullet; Black|Hate
    Bullet; BlackBullet; BlackBullet; Black|Mortal Enemy
    Skull and Crossbones|wants dead


    Bullet; Yellow|Admires
    Bullet; YellowBullet; Yellow|Respects
    Bullet; YellowBullet; YellowBullet; Yellow|Trusts
    Bullet; YellowBullet; YellowBullet; YellowBullet; Yellow|Idolizes

    Bullet; Pink|Attraction
    Bullet; PinkBullet; Pink|Crush
    Bullet; PinkBullet; PinkBullet; Pink|Major Crush
    Bullet; PinkBullet; PinkBullet; PinkBullet; Pink|Obsession 

    Bullet; Red|Visually Appealing
    Bullet; RedBullet; Red|Physical attraction
    Bullet; RedBullet; RedBullet; Red|Lust
    Heart|Has had a fling with

    Bullet; Purple|inseparable 
    Bullet; PurpleBullet; Purple|Loves
    Bullet; PurpleBullet; PurpleBullet; Purple|Would die for
    Rose|Mate

    Bullet; Green|Likes
    Bullet; GreenBullet; Green|Friend
    Bullet; GreenBullet; GreenBullet; Green|Best friend
    Bullet; GreenBullet; GreenBullet; GreenBullet; Green|Platonic love

    Bullet; White|Acquaintance
    Bullet; WhiteBullet; White|Unsure
    Bullet; WhiteBullet; WhiteBullet; White|Nervous of
    Bullet; WhiteBullet; WhiteBullet; WhiteBullet; White|Scared of

    Bullet; Blue|Uncomfortable
    Bullet; BlueBullet; Blue|Avoidance
    Bullet; BlueBullet; BlueBullet; Blue|Ex-Crush
    Bullet; BlueBullet; BlueBullet; BlueBullet; Blue|Ex-Mate

Moon Tribe
Halla || FrigidMoonlight || Unknown
Aibek || ZayZael || Unknown

Sun Tribe

Derga || Demonwolfwing || Bullet; WhiteBullet; WhiteBullet; White (Nervous of)
Natosi || Nekktar || Bullet; WhiteBullet; White (Unsure)
Samael || Black--Alpha || Bullet; WhiteBullet; White (Unsure)

Lucid || OneBadPanda || Bullet; BlackBullet; Black (Hates) Bullet; WhiteBullet; WhiteBullet; WhiteBullet; White (Scared of)

Earth Tribe

Riku || Kio-Mystery || Unknown
Brighttail || TeiOuja || Unknown
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Application (c) ZayZael
Character (c) OneBadPanda 
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I could have swore I had submitted this before, but I couldn't find it in my gallery. I recently found it again in my art folder and was very pleased with how it turned out. I've never been able to color like this again, but I think I want to try for this style of coloring once more. I surprised myself with how well it turned out. I think she is beautiful.

I have no idea what the proper category is for this kind of work. It's just a gif.

Even more surprised that it's a gif (albeit a little slow).

No tablet was used. Photoshop CS6 with the pen tool and other basic coloring tools.
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Date: Morning of 12-18-14

I say 'Morning of' because I woke up from the previous night with no recollection of a dream. My fiance was getting out of bed to take our dog outside (as well as clean up the kitchen and make me some breakfast, sweet, right?), which woke me up. I didn't think he would do all of that extra stuff, so I went back to sleep. Over the span of probably 30 minutes, give or take, I had perhaps the worst dream (to me) ever.

Some real life back story: I had a jack russel terrier named Keewii who I loved ever so dearly. She was young, but sweet and had a beautiful chocolate and white coat. When I moved away from my parents' house, I was going to take her with me, but she showed obvious signs of sickness at the new place (like throwing up and not eating). So, I figured she would be much happier back at my parents' on the farm with the rest of the dogs, who were her literal dog family. 

Not too long ago this year, my mom accidentally ran her over in the front yard. Our other terrier, Panda, has a bad habit of running around in front of vehicles trying to play with the other dogs. Because of Panda, we had lost another dog named Carmen in this same way. Now, due to Panda's ignorance with vehicles, her rough-housing with Keewii caused another tragedy. 

That makes this make a little more sense: The dream started off nice; my fiance and I were at what I presumed to be a winter retreat resort place with snowy mountains and a lot of amusement attractions. We were riding a snowmobile together on this snowmobile track that was safe and close by, having lots of fun. We got hungry, and so decided to get something to eat.

Im not sure why a fancy place like that would have a Sonic eatery, but it did, so we decided on sonic. While on the snowmobile, we actually found a coupon of sorts that was 10 Sonic dollars--so we thought why not? Now, again I'm not sure why, but suddenly I noticed everything around had a bit of a circus theme to it. There were little circus animals running around, circus people, colors, posters, weird stuff. It didn't bother me at all until--while my fiance was off getting some more money Im guessing--a little dog came up to me.

The dog had the same coat as my little Keewii. 

Now, fake memories began rushing to me. Somehow, I knew that Keewii had been in an accident. The accident caused her to have to lose a leg in order for her to survive. How she could have left my arms at that point and ended up as a circus dog, I have no idea, but she did, and I knew it. She'd been with these people for almost a year--according to my fake memories.

The horrific part? Not only was she missing a leg, but as I looked at her, one of her eyes were gone--a fake one hanging down from the eye socket like some sort of joke. Then, her other leg was gone, replaced by some sort of plastic pick. I didn't see much joy in her face, but she wouldn't leave my side, and was wagging her tail a little behind her.

I was mortified. I picked her up and demanded to see the owners of this circus, demanding their names and telling them how I had (for some dumb fuck reason) entrusted them with my dog. They couldn't look me in the eyes. From there, I simply broke down into tears holding my dog.

I woke up to my fiance bringing me breakfast. I felt bad, because I was crying the moment I woke up and couldn't eat for a little while. Eventually I could, then went to write this.

It's clear to me that there is still a huge part of me missing my dog Keewii. I had gotten a new dog (not to replace Keewii since I couldn't have her at my house anyway) for companionship at my house and she helps me not feel so alone, but she can never replace the feelings I had for Keewii. I hope to make new memories with Kyrin (our new miniature Australian Shepard) and form a bond just as close. 

I don't have nightmares. I don't have dreams where I'm being hunted, or killed in a brutal manner. I don't even have semi-scary dreams. But this, to me, was a nightmare.

:heart: Love your pets, they'll always love you. :heart:

RIP: Keewii

  • Mood: Mortified
  • Listening to: Classical - Lute Music
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D
  • Playing: Minecraft and Tera Online
  • Eating: Sausage and Pancake Dogs
  • Drinking: Vanilla Coke

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Reno-Art Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2015   Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch!
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ShallowShi Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I hate doing this here, but attempts to contact you through other means have failed. It's been three years. Am I ever going to get the rest of my luggage, or should I just go fuck myself?
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OneBadPanda Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Ive been trying to look for your address actually. Ive got your stuff and its safe. Just need the address again
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ShallowShi Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Do you still use facebook? I could PM it to you there.
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OneBadPanda Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Yes I do
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Pio-Scully Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2015
Did you know a Leo and a Aries aren't so post to get along?
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OneBadPanda Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
You an Aries?
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Pio-Scully Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2015
Mhm
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OneBadPanda Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Well fancy that lol but its alright
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Pio-Scully Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2014
I keep reading your name as OrochiPanda LOL
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